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Jun. 5th, 2006 @ 11:58 am
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thinking latley:
i can honestly say I hate me....
hate the way i look
hate my eating disorder
hate my family
hate that i am not good at the one thing i do actually love
hate the fact that if i dotn get anger out i cut
hate the fact that to feel genuinly happy i need to get high
hate the ex bf who put a scar across my face cuz i wouldnt do shit cuz i was
"telling myself i as worth better than sex"
hate acting happy
hate that i cant dance better then other ppl
hate anita
only 2 ppl in this world keep me hanging on
i thought this whole "hate" phase would have passed....but its been a month...too long....i am so miserable that i cant even move anymore...i havent slept....not gettin into tommy and everone else did made it worse....cuz i didnt get into a full dancing musical???ok thats a shot down! and then since the dance recital i have not been myself...w/eMoOdZ:  depressed MuSiK: "Not Ready To Make Nice"~ Dixie Chicks |
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BEST THING EVER!
I AM GOING 2 C MADONNA
WITH NIKKI C
JULY 10TH
AT 8
IN BOSTON!!
BALCONY SEATS
NEXT 2 DA STAGE
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Hey people!!!!
I havent been around this website in a while.
Thought I would say hi.
Hi!
I am bored at lunch at school!
So wuts new with me?
Nothing.
Aladdin Jr. ended and although I wont miss the show
I will miss the peeps
Dylan, Alexis, Cam, Emi, and Nikki C (etc)
This weekend = a sleepover
Dance on sat from 6-7
next weekend may 13th dance recital
just finished jazz and tap dance yesterday
Oh and by the way
I FUCKING HATE ANITA THE CUNT CARBONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she is a bitch and a cunt and a cocksucker and a backstabber haha!!!!
O and craig is an asswipe too... but i still love him!
O and Alyssa slept ova for once!
YaY!
thats about it
I am super pumped 4 y dance recital....
not sure wut 2 do with the hair
hey Dylan should I wear the pet???
who knows...
next up= Tech 4 Urinetown!
O and dealing with craig!!!
Luv U
Holliwood~CheddarMoOdZ:  calm MuSiK: The music thats in my head= U + Ur Hand ~ P!NK |
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Jan. 16th, 2006 @ 08:08 pm
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Jane Wiedlin Is the shit!!!! She is my new obession of the month. She is the guitarist in the Go Go's and is just the most awesome chick... I bought her album lol!!!! And I got the Eurythmics cd and I always thought they were pernounced the Eurythmitics (like the math) haha! I learn something new every day
Well i had to miss dance 2 day cuz i am stuck up at my moms house...again...even after all that shit happened...i still have to go there....i dunno!!!!
I went to rehersal and clung to anita cuz i always need someone when i am at my moms house and on top of it i was pissed cuz i didnt have ne thing cuz dance shoes script and dance clothes were stolen from school....so i just needed anita...and i was WICKED happy to be around ppl i like...unlike the fam.
Well my lil sis is trying to get me to go play uno with her so i am off!!!!MoOdZ:  stressed MuSiK: Be Without You~ Mary J. Blige |
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I don't know why but latley I have been feeling left out of the whole theatre thing. I dont know a lot of theatre stuff but I try to learn... like I havent talked to n e one from the mount in forever (except for mike) and like people leave comments on each others profile and I never get a comment...even when i do comment on people. I know I am not your typical theatre girl...but i still love it... i just wanna fit in and right now i feel like i dont at all... but oh well...MoOdZ: sad MuSiK: Lift Me Up~ Geri Halliwell |
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Okay the best week ever has officaly come to an immediate hault. I was forced to come to my moms house and i hate her house. The bed has no sheets, just a conforter...my lil' sisters stuff is everywhere in my room...including dirrty clotheas and underwear. The matress has holes where the springs have come out of them, and i was being poked by them all night. I woke up this morning with the biggest headache ever. I have been listening to madonna nonstop so i can keep calm. And today the bitch and her boyfriend both sat there on the couch and told me 80s metal bands were actually talentd compared to my "hip-hop" cuz it is actual music. And that 80s bands take more talent than showtunes......bull shit. So i have been in a bad mood...and then i found out that xmas is at my aunts house...not mine so i cant hide in my room then whole time and i am dreading thnksgivin.... o well nothing is ever good for me.
Holli
Nov. 19th, 2005 @ 05:16 pm
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Ok This has been the best week ever!!!!! On Monday I got my TATTOO yea!!!!!! (but mumsie dont know so shhh!!!!!) and then on tues MADONNAZ CD CAME OUT!!!! and i got it then 2day we took lil oold bff nikki her tattoo and it bled so bad dont get a tattoo on the back of ur neck lol..... So yea that was my week go to www.myspace.com/holliwoodbitches and check out my pix and ull c my tattoo
Nov. 16th, 2005 @ 03:25 pm
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okay i found this rly funny....i was downloading some music..madonna's new song...victoria beckham's new songs, black velvet, Dannii Minogue...and some showtunes and BAD BAD sex songs lol...well I thought about Victoria Beckham(Posh Spice)and then i thought of Geri Halliwell (ginger Spice) and liked her old song but didnt know the name of the song she did....so I look for it and I accidentally downloaded HER VERSION OF ITS RAINING MEN... hahaha it is sssoo funny....i love it..it has a violin! That made my day. Other than that i went out and bought Black Eyed Peas and Sean Paul and Rihanna lol I am on a music thing and in 10 DAYS MADONNA'S CD COMES OUT!!!!!!! I am excited!
Nov. 5th, 2005 @ 03:15 pm
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If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or moritified) about what people remember about you.
Nov. 4th, 2005 @ 08:07 pm
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So i had fun this weekend...all except the drama i had at Alexander! No one went to c me and i was emotional about it and then a girl pushed me over the edge and i almost punched her...but insytead broke all my make-up! but then we went to the movies and i sat all alone! and then i had fun cuz alyssa slept over and i missed her and we watched every orror movie that was on tv fun tymes and the night before kaara slept over! well thats that! ttyl 2nite is halloween and i have dance and i am goignt o be Elena from Zorro so ill have fun dancing in that dress/
Oct. 31st, 2005 @ 12:09 pm
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this is the video and its edited lol
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Oct. 24th, 2005 @ 12:07 pm
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On Monday Dylan came to dance with me and we had lots of fun. I get to do the splits in the dance. I had nikki tap last night and we had fun on the ride home! And I have no Alexander this week and I am pumped!!!!! Well not much going on...this weekend I am hanging out with Nikki and Danielle I think and we r gunna have fun lol But other than that nothing is new
I miss my friends..like Alyssa! and others!
Holliwood
Oct. 20th, 2005 @ 11:59 am
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Finally I feel like a teenager! lol my gram is letting me go out 2nite...not worring about times or anything...I am not goign to see her!!!1 She wont b picking me up or dropping me off ne where!!! Thnk god for Kevin Nolan!!! Lol And then I am going out with 2 other girls that normally I wouldnt b allowed to go out with,.....I am amazed!!! Thank god she forgets all the time so she we let me do shit!!!! Yeah!!! I am so excited!!!
Yea so Like I said we are going to friendly's and then we are off to c Clue the Musical if n e one wants to go call my cell we only have one seat left open!!!!! c yaz
Oct. 8th, 2005 @ 02:11 pm
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Lindsay Lohans New Song Speaks the truth....
Dear Daddy, wherever/whoever you are this is for you.....
"Confessions Of A Broken Heart"
I wait for the postman to bring me a letter
I wait for the good lord to make me fell better
and I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
A family in crisis that only grows older
Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go
Why'd you have to go
chorus:
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am broken but I am hoping
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am crying. a part of me dying and
These are, these are the
Confessions of a broken heart
I wear all your old clothes. your pollo sweater
I dream of another youthe one who would never (never)
Leave me alone to pick up the pieces
A daddy to hold me that's what I needed
So why'd you have to go
why'd you have to go
why'd you have to go
chorus:
Daughter to frather, daughter to father
I don't know you but i still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
tell me the truth did you ever love me
Cause these are, these are the confessions of a broken heart
I love you, I love you
I love you, I love, I love you
chorus:
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I don't know you but I still want to
Daughter to father, daughter to father
tell me the truth did you ever love me
Cause these are, these are the confessions of a broken heart
I wait for the postman to bring me a letter
Oct. 7th, 2005 @ 10:34 pm
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Okay now I know I love Madonna...of course I do....but thats not what I am all about....There is so much more...o yea its only dance...dance and madonna...wow I rly have no life...I am starting to realize that I absolutly suck at theatre. I cant rly sing that well although i can hold a good tune....and I am only and okay dancer...normally ppl are really strong at one or another...nikki c-dancing...alyssa-singing....lynne d-singing...cameron-singing...hannah-dancing.....me- neither....But o well
2morrow Jess and Nikki are comming over and then Kevin is picking us up and we are heading over to Friendly's in Gardner and then at 7:15 we are going to see Clue... I know that I am bringing non-theatre people BUT they THEMSELVES wanted to go.....I made Kevin go tho....lol we needed a ride. And there is one more seat in the car if n e one wants to go.
Well I am feeling kinda bummed about beauty but I wasnt expecting to get in...it just kinda bums me out wen ppl are like o i got in and o congradualtions on getting in...it makes me feel small....but I am going to audition for big river so who knows.
Oct. 7th, 2005 @ 08:43 pm
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I dont know what has been up with me latley...but I am starting to feel all alone again. Think it is the fact that my gram sed soemthing nasty to me and the fact i havent hung with ne of my friends in 3 weeks. I dunno what it is...and everyoe else is so busy like me and we all have opposite schedules and it just makes em mad!!!!!!!
As I predicted i didnt make beauty and the beast o well next up I am goign for jasmine I kno I am not good eneough to play ehr but i already started to loose wieght to play her and I am already working on my song. I usually never put down I want a lead I didnt een put down for Babette but o well I am gunna try! I am so happy Alyssa got Belle!!!! I am sooo pumped!!!!
Well thats all for now leave some love for ya girl!
Holli
Oct. 2nd, 2005 @ 03:14 pm
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Amo i miei amici ma a volte ho indossato pensa che me amino. ...It me fa sente come lo shit! Manco è ed il sentimento come una persona reale. Nessuno me porta serio. Ho il mio insegnante di ballo impressionante che è il solo un che fa me sente buono di mie. Desidero che più dei miei amici me abbia amato effettivamente.
Sep. 25th, 2005 @ 11:02 am
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I love mi Sarah schley she is awesome lol sometimes we can fit...a lot we can fight...but we still here for each other...according to mean girls... "And just soak up our awesomeness" lol
Sep. 25th, 2005 @ 10:54 am
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I love Alexander sso much, dont get me wrong...I just cannot ait until its over...no one rom that show likes me...I am always by myself during rehersals... I dont fit in with the threatre crowd! and ppl make me feel like shit in theatre...I am gunna _______ for beauty and beast but i am sure iw ont get in so who knows maybe i will stop theatre seeing as no one vens likes me there....Aleander was supposed to make everyone close at least thats what me and a few ppl predicted but now i am realizing how much no one likes me there...who knows?? I feel like a piece of shit soetimes!
Sep. 24th, 2005 @ 07:00 pm
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2morrow is the audition...
I am scared
I feel sick
I suck
I wont get in
I am wasting time
Sep. 24th, 2005 @ 06:13 pm
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